вторник, 16 октября 2007 г.

my_ancient_eyes: I wonder what she looks like. . . naked. I mean-- I wonder what she cooks like . . . naked.

I don't know how but class revolved around sex yet again.  Some guy brought up "freaks" and what is considered normal sexual behavior.  I think that we'd be able to come up with a definition if everyone was more comfortable talking about their kinks.  Of course amongst a group of people, I am not so I said nothing.  What is the relevance of that anyway?  It's called preference for a reason.  It has nothing to do with normal.  Anyway, it was pretty funny and I am scheduled to run lines with Farrington tomorrow during my break.  He said "During the last show, Terri locked me in a room and slapped me around until I learned my lines.  And I want you to do it again."  Ah the jokes, the jokes.  


Also, I don't know why I feel like crap today.  Sinuses I reckon but still.  My head is so congested and everything aches.  Don't like it at all.  Nor do I like having a denist appointment tomorrow with a guy I don't know . . . bahh dentists.  

Guys at the other side of the room are talking about ladies . . It's really annoying and piggy. 

cheriegirl: Lust. Caution

uncut.  

the 9 minutes must be recovered! HAHAHAH. i'm not kidding. i will get hold of te 9 minutes!

anyhows, today my inner rebel streak was developed to its fullest potential. we conveniently walked out of school for lunch at j8, without the intention of watching the movie initially, but somehow, we got round to doing so. and i didn't regret it at all. (but i bet Julian did. he realized it was a Chinese movie after the 4 women played mahjong for 4 whole minutes -____________-)

so the movie. wah it is a SUPER slow movie. like Brokeback Mountain. if i was sleepy, i would have slept half the show away. and probably wake up only at the not-even-sex sex scenes. okay i'm kidding. the 'sex' scenes weren't even whatever 'sex' scenes. after they cut it all out. 
but, because i was awake the ENTIRE time, the show is actually very intriguing! it is so deep, i was still thinking about it at night. as in the show was still at the forefront of my thoughts. that's why i say my withdrawal symptoms of ANYTHING is very serious one! >< 

Julian doesn't think it's deep, but i think so. so whatever hahaha. it was so exciting at some parts! :D and Leehom was just... just. simply. hyperventilatable. really. everytime he came out, my breath was caught. LOL serious! i'm not kidding. i haven't seen Leehom for so long. haha luckily got BFF there to hyperventilate with me lol. okay actually she didn't - only i did, fine -______- 
but the ending was so expected yet i didn't expect it. aiya watch it and you'll get what i mean.

BUT, I STILL MUST SAY, LEE ANG IS SOME DAMN GOOD DIRECTOR :D thumbs up for the man :)


after the movie, we adjourned to eat - again. cos it was raining and all. then we laughed so much. we being Oli, HY, Mel and Julian. 
then my Comm meeting was cancelled, and so Mummy came to fetch me, and BFF came to my house, since we wanted to continue our delinquent streak. 
we watched Secret, and many other shows. Secret is another nice show omg. if i were in the cinema, i would have cried. but i think Lakehouse was nicer. i don't know haha! (:

BFF just went home not too long ago. i need to settle some stuff about the Comm thing, and i really yao shui jiao le.


okay. TYL cannot be such a rebel anymore. TYL cannot let her mood decide her physical actions (eg: ponning) anymore. TYL has to start being a good girl and go to school (except Thurs cos the lessons are really SO bangsai i think i might just kick myself for going) and read her lecture notes. 

okay! word of the day: DELINQUENT :D:D

goodnight and byebye! (:

capttripps

WARNING!!!!!!!!!
WARNING!!!!!!!!!

This entry is an acct of the days leading up to and beyond the play party and munch on sat. There are some details but not a blow by blow of the play. I was there I don't need a blow by blow.












Hello folks
There has been something missing from this journal the last few days. I have found it hard to write about the planning for the BB after party. Im not sure why. I mean it would be easy to say it was because I was worried about her reading it. Im not sure if that's the only reason though. 
Wed - I got the bag out and cleaned the toys as best I could. I got a spray bottle and used a 1 part bleach 9 part water solution and sprayed everything, and wiped each thing down with a damp cloth. I don't know if that did a perfect job, but it was the best I could do.
Friday - I spoke to babygirl -- really it was sat morning really early and one of the last things she said was that she might play with BD when she saw him. My stomach gets tight just thinking about it now. Sighs  - on some level I think the minute I don't care at all with whom she plays or if she plays with others at all will truly be the moment we are done as a couple. When she called on the way to school she found out that her sister wasn't going to be there and she was counting on money from her to be able to go to see BD. She said she wasn't going. I figured that either she would still meet up with her sister or the BD would give her the money or he would meet somewhere close to where she was and they would talk in the car.
I shaved my head that morning and nicked myself pretty good. The day was not starting well. I took the boys to karate and met cindy after for lunch at hometown buffet. After I finished my "first plate" Tyler decided projectile vomiting would be fun, not once not twice, but three times as I rushed him toward the bathroom.
Needless to say my stomach decided it wanted no more food. I soon noticed that in addition to the wall the floor and a waiter or two, tyler had also redecorated my boots. As we were leaving I saw that she had sent a text msg saying that she was there. -- More stomach flops-- We stopped to gas up both cars as we left and decided to get arnett some pants at sears -- in the men's department. No more boys sizes for my "little" man. The trip to the store was typical.
[Insert typical tantrum from arnett here]
[Insert typical insensitive remark from cindy here]
On my way home she pm' ed me again saying she was leaving.
I told her she could call and as I parked we talked for quite a while. It was a hard talk but a good one. It was a very hard talk. I don't think Ill ever be simply "ok" with her playing. I would much rather be able to be there however often our needs required. Once a month, anything would be better than once every couple of yrs and/or someone else putting their hands on her. My feelings aside from what she said then and since it was a good experience for her.
After we spoke I get home and start getting ready -- gotta clean "tyler" off my boots. I manage to loose my keys and get frantic before finding them. When I do get going I run into heavy traffic. It turned out ok though. Babygirl called and we spoke until I got there. A new bit of info, she told me that she got nude when she played. That was hard to hear because it was something that I had said was a limit. I understand -- EVEN IF I STILL DONT LIKE IT -- why though. Finally I arrive at the munch and see lots of friendly faces ,old friends and soon to be friends. I spoke to Vi Johnson -- Im still green enough to get a kick out of her calling me sir. "Ole Girl" is already there talking to Momma Vi. We say hello but its so crowded that we have to sit apart. Another sub sits beside me at my table and we talk until "ole girl" makes her way over to an adjoining table. I excuse myself and sit down to talk to her. I see that she is drinking.
[insert prior talk on topic]
After that is settled its soon time for the play party -- Once there folks are annoyed -- Its a small small place. Most sit around and pout or go home. Slo did a pretty good rope demo -- in a style I really want to use on babygirl so I asked a lot of questions. When it was done "ole girl" and I played. It was very hard to focus at first. I stopped took a deep breath and relaxed. It was a good scene. I think so anyway. Except for the chair someone moved close after I started and snagged the flogger on. That was annoying but funny. When we were done she didn't need much after care. I helped her get her stuff together and we talked a bit and I was on my merry way. I cant ignore the good feelings I had during and after the scene. The one thing that was hard was how deeply I wanted to have sex. Not with "ole girl" just general horniness. I know Im not alone but a good bdsm scene is as good as any porno of raw wild sex.
When I checked my phone I saw that she was concerned and checking on me. That put a huge smile on my face. We talked all the way home and for over 30 mins as I was parked. Looking back I spent more time on the phone with her then I would normally on a sat. Mon we were talking while she was on her way to work. When she arrived she read a post about the munch and went into "novel" mode. I knew that she was posting to journal -- when she told me she had I read it. She put her feelings out there and there is no need to rehash them here. We did speak about them some --and Ill leave it at that for now. We are communicating which is the greatest. 

Me

cheriegirl: Lust. Caution

uncut.  

the 9 minutes must be recovered! HAHAHAH. i'm not kidding. i will get hold of te 9 minutes!

anyhows, today my inner rebel streak was developed to its fullest potential. we conveniently walked out of school for lunch at j8, without the intention of watching the movie initially, but somehow, we got round to doing so. and i didn't regret it at all. (but i bet Julian did. he realized it was a Chinese movie after the 4 women played mahjong for 4 whole minutes -____________-)

so the movie. wah it is a SUPER slow movie. like Brokeback Mountain. if i was sleepy, i would have slept half the show away. and probably wake up only at the not-even-sex sex scenes. okay i'm kidding. the 'sex' scenes weren't even whatever 'sex' scenes. after they cut it all out. 
but, because i was awake the ENTIRE time, the show is actually very intriguing! it is so deep, i was still thinking about it at night. as in the show was still at the forefront of my thoughts. that's why i say my withdrawal symptoms of ANYTHING is very serious one! >< 

Julian doesn't think it's deep, but i think so. so whatever hahaha. it was so exciting at some parts! :D and Leehom was just... just. simply. hyperventilatable. really. everytime he came out, my breath was caught. LOL serious! i'm not kidding. i haven't seen Leehom for so long. haha luckily got BFF there to hyperventilate with me lol. okay actually she didn't - only i did, fine -______- 
but the ending was so expected yet i didn't expect it. aiya watch it and you'll get what i mean.

BUT, I STILL MUST SAY, LEE ANG IS SOME DAMN GOOD DIRECTOR :D thumbs up for the man :)


after the movie, we adjourned to eat - again. cos it was raining and all. then we laughed so much. we being Oli, HY, Mel and Julian. 
then my Comm meeting was cancelled, and so Mummy came to fetch me, and BFF came to my house, since we wanted to continue our delinquent streak. 
we watched Secret, and many other shows. Secret is another nice show omg. if i were in the cinema, i would have cried. but i think Lakehouse was nicer. i don't know haha! (:

BFF just went home not too long ago. i need to settle some stuff about the Comm thing, and i really yao shui jiao le.


okay. TYL cannot be such a rebel anymore. TYL cannot let her mood decide her physical actions (eg: ponning) anymore. TYL has to start being a good girl and go to school (except Thurs cos the lessons are really SO bangsai i think i might just kick myself for going) and read her lecture notes. 

okay! word of the day: DELINQUENT :D:D

goodnight and byebye! (:

capttripps

WARNING!!!!!!!!!
WARNING!!!!!!!!!

This entry is an acct of the days leading up to and beyond the play party and munch on sat. There are some details but not a blow by blow of the play. I was there I don't need a blow by blow.












Hello folks
There has been something missing from this journal the last few days. I have found it hard to write about the planning for the BB after party. Im not sure why. I mean it would be easy to say it was because I was worried about her reading it. Im not sure if that's the only reason though. 
Wed - I got the bag out and cleaned the toys as best I could. I got a spray bottle and used a 1 part bleach 9 part water solution and sprayed everything, and wiped each thing down with a damp cloth. I don't know if that did a perfect job, but it was the best I could do.
Friday - I spoke to babygirl -- really it was sat morning really early and one of the last things she said was that she might play with BD when she saw him. My stomach gets tight just thinking about it now. Sighs  - on some level I think the minute I don't care at all with whom she plays or if she plays with others at all will truly be the moment we are done as a couple. When she called on the way to school she found out that her sister wasn't going to be there and she was counting on money from her to be able to go to see BD. She said she wasn't going. I figured that either she would still meet up with her sister or the BD would give her the money or he would meet somewhere close to where she was and they would talk in the car.
I shaved my head that morning and nicked myself pretty good. The day was not starting well. I took the boys to karate and met cindy after for lunch at hometown buffet. After I finished my "first plate" Tyler decided projectile vomiting would be fun, not once not twice, but three times as I rushed him toward the bathroom.
Needless to say my stomach decided it wanted no more food. I soon noticed that in addition to the wall the floor and a waiter or two, tyler had also redecorated my boots. As we were leaving I saw that she had sent a text msg saying that she was there. -- More stomach flops-- We stopped to gas up both cars as we left and decided to get arnett some pants at sears -- in the men's department. No more boys sizes for my "little" man. The trip to the store was typical.
[Insert typical tantrum from arnett here]
[Insert typical insensitive remark from cindy here]
On my way home she pm' ed me again saying she was leaving.
I told her she could call and as I parked we talked for quite a while. It was a hard talk but a good one. It was a very hard talk. I don't think Ill ever be simply "ok" with her playing. I would much rather be able to be there however often our needs required. Once a month, anything would be better than once every couple of yrs and/or someone else putting their hands on her. My feelings aside from what she said then and since it was a good experience for her.
After we spoke I get home and start getting ready -- gotta clean "tyler" off my boots. I manage to loose my keys and get frantic before finding them. When I do get going I run into heavy traffic. It turned out ok though. Babygirl called and we spoke until I got there. A new bit of info, she told me that she got nude when she played. That was hard to hear because it was something that I had said was a limit. I understand -- EVEN IF I STILL DONT LIKE IT -- why though. Finally I arrive at the munch and see lots of friendly faces ,old friends and soon to be friends. I spoke to Vi Johnson -- Im still green enough to get a kick out of her calling me sir. "Ole Girl" is already there talking to Momma Vi. We say hello but its so crowded that we have to sit apart. Another sub sits beside me at my table and we talk until "ole girl" makes her way over to an adjoining table. I excuse myself and sit down to talk to her. I see that she is drinking.
[insert prior talk on topic]
After that is settled its soon time for the play party -- Once there folks are annoyed -- Its a small small place. Most sit around and pout or go home. Slo did a pretty good rope demo -- in a style I really want to use on babygirl so I asked a lot of questions. When it was done "ole girl" and I played. It was very hard to focus at first. I stopped took a deep breath and relaxed. It was a good scene. I think so anyway. Except for the chair someone moved close after I started and snagged the flogger on. That was annoying but funny. When we were done she didn't need much after care. I helped her get her stuff together and we talked a bit and I was on my merry way. I cant ignore the good feelings I had during and after the scene. The one thing that was hard was how deeply I wanted to have sex. Not with "ole girl" just general horniness. I know Im not alone but a good bdsm scene is as good as any porno of raw wild sex.
When I checked my phone I saw that she was concerned and checking on me. That put a huge smile on my face. We talked all the way home and for over 30 mins as I was parked. Looking back I spent more time on the phone with her then I would normally on a sat. Mon we were talking while she was on her way to work. When she arrived she read a post about the munch and went into "novel" mode. I knew that she was posting to journal -- when she told me she had I read it. She put her feelings out there and there is no need to rehash them here. We did speak about them some --and Ill leave it at that for now. We are communicating which is the greatest. 

Me

cheriegirl: Lust. Caution

uncut.  

the 9 minutes must be recovered! HAHAHAH. i'm not kidding. i will get hold of te 9 minutes!

anyhows, today my inner rebel streak was developed to its fullest potential. we conveniently walked out of school for lunch at j8, without the intention of watching the movie initially, but somehow, we got round to doing so. and i didn't regret it at all. (but i bet Julian did. he realized it was a Chinese movie after the 4 women played mahjong for 4 whole minutes -____________-)

so the movie. wah it is a SUPER slow movie. like Brokeback Mountain. if i was sleepy, i would have slept half the show away. and probably wake up only at the not-even-sex sex scenes. okay i'm kidding. the 'sex' scenes weren't even whatever 'sex' scenes. after they cut it all out. 
but, because i was awake the ENTIRE time, the show is actually very intriguing! it is so deep, i was still thinking about it at night. as in the show was still at the forefront of my thoughts. that's why i say my withdrawal symptoms of ANYTHING is very serious one! >< 

Julian doesn't think it's deep, but i think so. so whatever hahaha. it was so exciting at some parts! :D and Leehom was just... just. simply. hyperventilatable. really. everytime he came out, my breath was caught. LOL serious! i'm not kidding. i haven't seen Leehom for so long. haha luckily got BFF there to hyperventilate with me lol. okay actually she didn't - only i did, fine -______- 
but the ending was so expected yet i didn't expect it. aiya watch it and you'll get what i mean.

BUT, I STILL MUST SAY, LEE ANG IS SOME DAMN GOOD DIRECTOR :D thumbs up for the man :)


after the movie, we adjourned to eat - again. cos it was raining and all. then we laughed so much. we being Oli, HY, Mel and Julian. 
then my Comm meeting was cancelled, and so Mummy came to fetch me, and BFF came to my house, since we wanted to continue our delinquent streak. 
we watched Secret, and many other shows. Secret is another nice show omg. if i were in the cinema, i would have cried. but i think Lakehouse was nicer. i don't know haha! (:

BFF just went home not too long ago. i need to settle some stuff about the Comm thing, and i really yao shui jiao le.


okay. TYL cannot be such a rebel anymore. TYL cannot let her mood decide her physical actions (eg: ponning) anymore. TYL has to start being a good girl and go to school (except Thurs cos the lessons are really SO bangsai i think i might just kick myself for going) and read her lecture notes. 

okay! word of the day: DELINQUENT :D:D

goodnight and byebye! (:

capttripps

WARNING!!!!!!!!!
WARNING!!!!!!!!!

This entry is an acct of the days leading up to and beyond the play party and munch on sat. There are some details but not a blow by blow of the play. I was there I don't need a blow by blow.












Hello folks
There has been something missing from this journal the last few days. I have found it hard to write about the planning for the BB after party. Im not sure why. I mean it would be easy to say it was because I was worried about her reading it. Im not sure if that's the only reason though. 
Wed - I got the bag out and cleaned the toys as best I could. I got a spray bottle and used a 1 part bleach 9 part water solution and sprayed everything, and wiped each thing down with a damp cloth. I don't know if that did a perfect job, but it was the best I could do.
Friday - I spoke to babygirl -- really it was sat morning really early and one of the last things she said was that she might play with BD when she saw him. My stomach gets tight just thinking about it now. Sighs  - on some level I think the minute I don't care at all with whom she plays or if she plays with others at all will truly be the moment we are done as a couple. When she called on the way to school she found out that her sister wasn't going to be there and she was counting on money from her to be able to go to see BD. She said she wasn't going. I figured that either she would still meet up with her sister or the BD would give her the money or he would meet somewhere close to where she was and they would talk in the car.
I shaved my head that morning and nicked myself pretty good. The day was not starting well. I took the boys to karate and met cindy after for lunch at hometown buffet. After I finished my "first plate" Tyler decided projectile vomiting would be fun, not once not twice, but three times as I rushed him toward the bathroom.
Needless to say my stomach decided it wanted no more food. I soon noticed that in addition to the wall the floor and a waiter or two, tyler had also redecorated my boots. As we were leaving I saw that she had sent a text msg saying that she was there. -- More stomach flops-- We stopped to gas up both cars as we left and decided to get arnett some pants at sears -- in the men's department. No more boys sizes for my "little" man. The trip to the store was typical.
[Insert typical tantrum from arnett here]
[Insert typical insensitive remark from cindy here]
On my way home she pm' ed me again saying she was leaving.
I told her she could call and as I parked we talked for quite a while. It was a hard talk but a good one. It was a very hard talk. I don't think Ill ever be simply "ok" with her playing. I would much rather be able to be there however often our needs required. Once a month, anything would be better than once every couple of yrs and/or someone else putting their hands on her. My feelings aside from what she said then and since it was a good experience for her.
After we spoke I get home and start getting ready -- gotta clean "tyler" off my boots. I manage to loose my keys and get frantic before finding them. When I do get going I run into heavy traffic. It turned out ok though. Babygirl called and we spoke until I got there. A new bit of info, she told me that she got nude when she played. That was hard to hear because it was something that I had said was a limit. I understand -- EVEN IF I STILL DONT LIKE IT -- why though. Finally I arrive at the munch and see lots of friendly faces ,old friends and soon to be friends. I spoke to Vi Johnson -- Im still green enough to get a kick out of her calling me sir. "Ole Girl" is already there talking to Momma Vi. We say hello but its so crowded that we have to sit apart. Another sub sits beside me at my table and we talk until "ole girl" makes her way over to an adjoining table. I excuse myself and sit down to talk to her. I see that she is drinking.
[insert prior talk on topic]
After that is settled its soon time for the play party -- Once there folks are annoyed -- Its a small small place. Most sit around and pout or go home. Slo did a pretty good rope demo -- in a style I really want to use on babygirl so I asked a lot of questions. When it was done "ole girl" and I played. It was very hard to focus at first. I stopped took a deep breath and relaxed. It was a good scene. I think so anyway. Except for the chair someone moved close after I started and snagged the flogger on. That was annoying but funny. When we were done she didn't need much after care. I helped her get her stuff together and we talked a bit and I was on my merry way. I cant ignore the good feelings I had during and after the scene. The one thing that was hard was how deeply I wanted to have sex. Not with "ole girl" just general horniness. I know Im not alone but a good bdsm scene is as good as any porno of raw wild sex.
When I checked my phone I saw that she was concerned and checking on me. That put a huge smile on my face. We talked all the way home and for over 30 mins as I was parked. Looking back I spent more time on the phone with her then I would normally on a sat. Mon we were talking while she was on her way to work. When she arrived she read a post about the munch and went into "novel" mode. I knew that she was posting to journal -- when she told me she had I read it. She put her feelings out there and there is no need to rehash them here. We did speak about them some --and Ill leave it at that for now. We are communicating which is the greatest. 

Me